I wish the world would understand how I feel. I wish there was a place where I could be just me and feeling how I am feeling and them to be ok with it. I wish I felt safe.
Because, really. People ask you how you feel, but the truth is, most of them don't really want to know. "How are you?" "Oh, you know.. I feel very down these days, and I wish I could just stay in bed and do nothing. Not because I am lazy or anything, but just because I feel like I have no energy left to give, you know?" "Uh..". So you don't say it, because people don't really know how to react to that. Instead you say the common everyday lie "I am fine."
And God forbids you are not 100% mentally present at work. Oh my God, because what do you answer to the question "Ok, what is wrong with you these days?" I feel down? I am so stressed with assignments, but still when I sit down to write them down I feel like doing anything else? I miss my family? I want to go home? I wish I had someone by my side who understands me and supports me on times like this? I just wish I could run away and never come back?
I wish corporations today would threat me like a human being, and not like a machine. I have feelings and I have my down days. Don't we all? I wish I lived in a world where you don't have to be so scared of making mistakes. Because sometimes they happen. I wish society could understand that. I wish I could feel safe and have a sense that I am enough.
Until next time,