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On Thursday, 13th of August, I submitted my master's dissertation. It's been a very stressful past couple of months, I must say. The past couple of weeks were especially stressful, for me and for everyone around me.
I want to take a moment here to thank everyone who stood by me and supported me in the past couple of years. I would have never made it if it wasn't for you. Thank you.
I am sure I will write in more details about my study in a few months here on my blog, but for now I just don't want to think about it anymore. To summarize it in plain words, I wanted to research if society today was as fucked as I thought it was, and the answer is yes. Research proved it. More details to come in the foreseeable future.
That aside.. it's over. It's done. I still can't quite believe it. True, I still have nightmares about my thesis, and when I wake up my first thought is "is it really over?" It is. It's been a long 2 years and I put into this everything that I had.
Everytime, when things got hard I told myself "just a little bit more", but that little bit was never little and always so far away.
Everytime, when things got hard I told myself "just a little bit more", but that little bit was never little and always so far away. So the day before my handing-in I thought "just a little bit more" and it suddenly hit me that, holy shit, this was a little, and sure as hell it was about to be over. The feeling was surreal. All the blood, and sweat, and stress, and anxiety, and counselling sessions, and long hours shifts, and forcing myself to Uni and study after a long shift, forcing myself to be strong, and breaking down in the next moment, and all the bloody hard days were over. This was it. I made it to the finish line.
I dreamt about this moment for 3 years. All those things lead me to this moment. The moment where all that pain, and stress, and hardwork, and persistence was over and it lead me right here. All that shit was worth it. I did it! ..But never, ever again.
And now it's done. The only thing left is to hope for the best. I've done everything that I could, and I gave all that I had. Fingers crossed that it was enough. Please, let it be enough.
It's been a long journey and I am glad is over.
I am ready for new adventures to come.